Impossible to find a cock to suck - Elarduspark

I have been posting ads on here but it seems its impossible to find someone serious willing to let me suck his cock.

Maybe its because finding someone who can host daytime is the real problem. Maybe its because what i fantasize about, that its too “different” to their liking. Maybe im too old?

Here goes again, this will be my last ad before giving up.

About me, im a 45yo married white male, straightacting decent and clean. I have a big fetish for sissification, experiencing sex from the girls perspective. Feeling emasculated, in the presence of a “real man” and getting used by him. Being his bitch, turned into his slut.

Letting him be in control, in charge and me being his submissive, his slave, a cum dumpster to be used by him. Standing in front of him, dressed as he instructed. Thigh high stockings, a tight lace thong or panties, size extra small keeping my limp male parts tucked away. Matching bra, perfume and lipgloss. Feeling the humiliation of being dressed as a girl in front of a man, being limp and tiny while under his clothes lurks a thick manly cock. Feeling the sissy in me taking over and submitting to the real man in the room.

Following his orders to kneel in front of him and rub him through his pants before taking his cock out. Taking him in my mouth and starting to suck him off. My heart racing, realising i have a mans cock in my mouth and that his balls is filled with his cum, his seed, about to be injected into my mouth. Knowing that there is no return from this. Feeling his hands behind my head as he slowly starts to fuck my mouth, feeling what it feels like for a girl. On my knees in front of a man in sexy lace underwear, the thong tight against my ass (or maybe this is a pussy now?) and my limp cock tucked away (or is this a sissy clit now?)

Continueing until he cums in my mouth, or maybe he will jerk off and cum on my face? Either way, this will mark me as his sissy slut, covered in his cum. Once he is done, i stand up and slowly walk back towards the bathroom. No longer walking like a man, but as a sissy….slowly, femininely like a girl

As i put my male clothes on again, i start to process what i just did. I made a man cum with my mouth. What i will only realise at that point is - do i like sex more as a girl or as a guy?

Looking for a clean white guy who can host in Pta (pref east) or Centurion. I have never been with a guy but this is something i crave to experience. Ideally this is not just a once off, but an ongoing thing in various scenarios, settings and positions.

This can also start online where you start emasculating and sissifying me via email before we meet. I also have a pink chastity cage in a pussy shape which i can wear.

Looking forward to be humiliated, emasculated and used by you…..if you exist

Lets start chatting via email as i need to be discreet